hope everything is going good for everyone like it is for me!

have a good weekend!

 

U know how its hard to find s/o that has everything...not just either all boring or all to hyper?out going or just to shy?Well LOL my girl Donna has everything...

 This is Donna as a badazz!

This is Donna posing...

This is Donna being crazy!

and this is her just chillin.

Not to naughty,not to sweet,not to mean,not to crazy,not to old(shes 21)not to young...just right.

 

*This page is for one of my girls Tiffany*hope these pics of Donna are what u wanted me to put on here haha!

If my grandmother could do something to change her funeral I'm sure she would've... she prob would've said "Shut the hell up and get on with it!" LOL...they talked about her and shared memories and thats what its for....but the speaker wouldn't shut up and I was thinkin to myself..."ok man...stop talkin bout people saving people...say shes in a better place if ya wanna but this isn't church and you can back off a little, my gosh." my mom felt the same cuz once we left she told me she doesn't want a church sevice at her funeral either.

Seeing her lay there hit me like bricks falling from a wall onto a silent,still sidewalk...Last I seen her she looked more pale without all the makeup they packed on her sweet face laying clam and peaceful now.I remember her not being able to talk after her stroke but holding my mothers hand whispering "help me.."a tear ran down her face and her weak body beginning to swell...I wish I had memories to remember but I won't forget this one...b/c we will all see this day ...whether it is ourself or a loved one we will die...

We buried her beside her forgotton family...people I never even knew...beneath this ground that I walk on everyday and take advantage of...I'm sure she has never been more peaceful on a rainy day like that one...

~In memory of Helen RIP~

Me and Chelsea at a party!

Me as a cartoon!

Me and Chelsea are just chillin

Thats my boy ChrisX!

Good times!HAHA

thats me!Chelsea wanted to take a pic of my hair so there it is!

Thats me agian!

I have some more of me and my friend Cody!We hung out tonight and took some pics at Mc D's so I'll try to put them on here ASAP

It's crazy without my long pretty hair...I like it though...I mean I took a picture of "Shane" to Aveda(a hair place that is expensive but worth the money) and said make it look like that and color it however ya want and she did an awesome job and the color was shocking but hey....everyone at work and all my friends seem to LOVE IT!I think if I didn't have the red highlights it would look more like Shane but a few ppl told me"ur hair looks like that girl off The L Word" not knowing thats what I wanted so....I guess it still does!

MY SPRING BREAK IS GOING BY TO FAST! We go back on Monday but we should only have 8 weeks of school to go and I'm very excited about this summer!!!It's gonna be awesome!Me and my girls already have a few things planned but I'm just ready for the hott weather and everything that comes with it!

Lets see... Today I went to ETSU for some lil tour of the campus...(it sucked lol)but we did get to go to the mall afterwards which made it better!(ya know gettin outta skool and all)

1st day of Spring and it snowed!

Went to work...and well...work is work...not a lot to say bout that...

My dad finally called today!!!....HAHA JUST KIDDING ya right my dad never calls me...I can't even remember the last time he did...(I can hardly remember what I ate yesterday so that doesn't say much LOL)but no 4real he never calls...EVER, I prob wouldn't even know his voice if he did dial my digits!It could be worse I guess....at least I know who my dad is...sometimes I think its just as hard doe to have a dad u kno treat you like shit...show u he doesn't care right to your face...thats just as hard or harder!Fuck it next subject...movin right along...

Went lookin with one of my friends at some apartments... I'm moving out and its never to early to start lookin for a place...

I hope everyone has had a great day and continues to have a good week...I'm out for now! byebye

We have people walk into our lives every day...some we walk past and never realize that they are even there...then there are those people that you can never foget...they come into ur life and have such an impact...
Each one of us will have chapters in our lives...and they are meant to be closed sometimes...
Looking back we will remember that in those chapters we closed and the chapters that continue still into out life today have made us who we are...
either bad or good I am blessed and thankful for those who I have had in my life...
even though our lives never wait and we never know what lies ahead we are forced to reconsider living in our past and moving forward...
we all take risk and must take chances...we all do it
I have taken risk and if anything it has shown me just how far I can go...without taking chances and risk we won't know just what we can do and who we can be...
so happiness and joy may end in grief but those of us that are strong should be strong...
we shouldn't forget the past but learn from it...if there is sorrow this is a really hard thing to do...
but in closer I can say I loved and love all the ones that have made me who I am today...saying goodbye and closing this time or chapter in my life is hard,sad,but yet exciting for me...
we all have our expericences...good and bad...
but we don't need to forget...just be thankful for the expericence and continue our lives with those around us while they remain in our life...

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most was being
so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

I've never felt like this before

I watched u walk outta my door

don't come back no more...no don't come back no more

I stood right there day and night

making sure u was alright

I'd wait in the rain even though it wasn't right....no it wasn't right

I believed in u like nobody else

I put u 1st even be4 myself

pain is all I felt oh but love was all I felt

I love being apart

its good for my heart

knew this would happen from the start

I chose to love anyway

even though u treated me different every day

this made it hard to stay oh so hard to stay

if only you knew

but u don't have a clue

what I did and everything I'd do

or do you?

I can honestly say I haven't felt like this in so long

oh please stay gone....please stay gone

my heart you 4-ever have written on

what do you do when your angel loses her wings

you get off your knees get off your knees

set yourself free you stood so long then u got on ur knees just set urself free

time won't wait on me

I'll lay myself down by this unresting sea

life goes on with or without you or me...(anybody)

sing a song with a resting tune

putting to sleep my days and nights of gloom

with or without you....

praying everynight to thank God that I see

what you have done to me

 if only you told me what is true I would believe

in the end where will we all be

washed up on the unresting see

my journey begins every morning I wake

oh I wont make that same mistake...no I won't make the same mistake

 

 

 

 

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

 

IT KILLS ME TO SEE YOU CRY...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY!!!